From Monday to the middle of Friday,
I wait for the second half of Friday to Sunday,
From the second half of Friday to Sunday,
I dread the next Monday to the middle of Friday,
From Monday to the middle of Friday,
I have to sit in a chair and walk in the halls of a school,
Indeed, classes are slow and boring, but that is not the worst part,
I know that some people would kill to be able to have my education anyway,
No, the worst part is that I am not loved,
I am met with disregard, dislike, or casual friendship,
I live through five school days of this place void of intimacy for me each week,
I am not especially bullied, harassed, or hated, but neither am I especially loved.
Then I come to Church on the weekend,
On Friday, I enjoy the company of my loving friends at Friday Night Worship,
I wrestle with one of them regularly, I share many laughs with all of them,
I learn more about God through them, I learn more about music through them,
I learn more about myself through them, I learn to love through them,
On Saturday, I go to Church to meet some friends to go to a home for handicapped adults,
We volunteer, sing songs, and just have a great time with the residents,
On Sunday, I know that the weekend will soon end and I want to prolong my stay at Church,
But still, despite my desires, I stay there for a long time, but I go home in the end,
Frecuently, my weekends do not leave me satisfied,
This one time, we had to leave very early on Sunday and that just left me so disappointed
What happens often is that someone or many people I love at Church have problems and the mood is changed and it becomes hard to feel the love that I crave each weekend,
But the strange thing is, God is supposed to be enough right?
Why is it that I do not feel satisfaction in Him who has greater Love for me than anyone else in the world?
Why is it that I turn to anyone but Him to love and be loved?
Why is He not the food I hunger for and the drink I thirst for most of all?
Why do I not accept the Love that He has to give for everyday of the week?
hi roger - your post brings to life a concept: alienation.
ReplyDeleteYou should try to post on other words too. What is grace? What is glory? What is discipline? Try to define them through the events/thoughts of your life.
i offer this suggestion b/c people who blog often don't know what to write next.